My bracelet broke. Or rather, it just slipped off — it’s looser than my wrist. At forty, that’s a pretty cringe piece of news. (Hope I used that right.) For me, it’s only mildly so. My favourite dealer, my friend from my old life in New York, texted me: his daughter was born. I’m sorry I can’t write anything about her — I mean the girl, I mean the baby’s mother. She’s a wonderful person; I don’t know if she realizes it, but she saved my life more than once. And I’m sorry I can’t fly home — home? — over there.
Fi is waiting with dinner and a brutal scolding. Fair enough: I didn’t just forget our date night, I forgot her birthday too. And I drank the celebratory wine on the way home. Still, I’m not as bad as Rob in High Fidelity. Fuck, I almost spoiled it. But: I didn’t cheat, didn’t borrow money. I don’t know of any abortion. Or spoiler. The emphasis is on don’t know.
Doesn’t help that I asked: what are your five favourite songs about relationships? Five favourite breakup songs? No, I said relationships — but someone smarter than me would’ve already felt something’s wrong here. Well, I didn’t feel it. Instead, I made a list.
Café de Flor — Katatya
Not in Love — Crystal Castles ft. Robert Smith of The Cure
I’d Do Anything for Love (But I Won’t Do That) — Meat Loaf
Negative Man Singing — Doom Patrol
You Are My Sunshine
+1: The Foggy Dew — Sinéad O’Connor & The Chieftains (well, technically that's not a relationship song, but anyways.)
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